Thursday, April 28, 2011

FEAR...DELETE IT NOW!!!

Salam..rasa rindu kat blog yg satu ni..dan sememangnya kau saja lah yang menjadi teman setia aku sehingga hari ini. Tak kira masa aku happy ke, depress ke, susah dan senang hanya kau yang faham. Aku dah lama nak tulis benda ni cuma tak terluah dari hati sanubari ni.

When we take a step ahead, people might do their own rumours...upon us..some are pleasant and encouraging BUT some might even hurt ourself and make us down. This is what I feel in my opinion. And the best part is that, all the unpleasant things come from people we know long long ago, sad to say; family, relatives and close friends. Yeah, then I discovered that being different is really got the challenge and yet must be done all the way, all out full heartedly. That's why successful people are limited and few. People with the common way of thinking, common mindset, mentality is everywhere. And this appears to be something special when I learned The Road Not Taken by Robert Frost in Form 3. I still remember some lines of the poem.

Why, it was so hard for me to overcome and face my own blood and flesh when I am doing this? Always I decide for myself. But now, I feel like being a burden for them(my aunty) when I overslept or came here. Since that incident, my relationship with her has been affected..maybe this is only my own feeling..owh, me too quite affected in terms of emotion. Considering her as the best and supportive yet understanding aunt, I felt disappointed with her view about what I am doing. Terrible...luckily, my own parents still there supporting me even they also experience the hurt and loads that we share. I used to independent and I don't like being too dependant on my father because I am the eldest in family.

Come to me MY CHEQUES..COME!!!
BUILDING SOMETHING FROM NOTHING
IN LIFE WE HAVE TO MAKE ONE RIGHT DECISION TO BE SUCCESSFUL

I decided to live my dream, to do something that transform my life. Because I know that this is the BEST REAL LIFE LESSON AND LEARNING.

Thursday, April 14, 2011

A Story that NEVER Lies






Semalam...satu sejarah. Hari ni cerita baru.
Pahit atau manis ia tetap sejarah yang sudah tercatat dalam hidup aku.
Biar payah aku terus aku gagahi kudrat ini kerana aku percaya aku akan dapat mencapai impianku. Memang benar tiada yang sia-sia Tuhan jadikan dan Dia lah Perancang terbaik.

Satu hari yang penuh dengan dugaan. Keseorangan. Sendiri bergelut dengan perasaan dan fikiran. Tuhan saja tempat aku mengadu. Keluarga jauh sekali. Payah untuk aku luahkan pada mereka. Tiada siapa yang lebih memahami melainkan Dia. Aku berdoa dan berdoa. Titis airmata di sejadah tatkala menghadap-Nya.

Ya, kala ini aku melalui satu fasa yang agak sukar bagi usia ini namun aku mahu terus ke hadapan tanpa berhenti dan menoleh ke belakang apatah lagi berundur. Bukan diri ku. Mesti ada jalan keluar bagi setiap masalah. MESTI.

Petang kian hampir. 6 petang ada prospek. Mood kurang ok. Agak down untuk present; tidak seperti semalam. Nasib baik aku punya coach yang baik dan penyabar. Aku cuma mendengar dengan teliti. Dan belajar.


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7.30 malam, aku dan coach cadang mahu menonton wayang. Aku pun setuju memandangkan bosan dan perlu tenangkan fikiran. Terpandang poster NEVER SAY NEVER- JUSTIN BIEBER. Aku tanya sama coach; "ni movie ke?" Ya katanya. "Jom tengok ni." Kata putus dicapai. 3D movie yang ada, yang biasa tidak available. Aku memang ikut je laa. Memandangkan nak tengok Merong terkubur sebab tayangan pukul 9malam. Aku solat dulu sebelum ke wayang. Tidak mahu menyesal lagi.

Cerita bermula. Tiada sari kata. Aku faham cuma kurang jelas. Tapi aku faham cerita dan jalan cerita. Ini kisah benar. Bermulanya perjalanan seorang Justin Bieber.

Passion, determination and believe...
it's all about dream...
live to achieve that dream..

Entah mengapa aku rasa sesuatu menjadi penawar hati bila menonton filem ini. Tidak rugi. Pasti. Walaupun pada awalnya aku sangsi keputusan untuk menonton cerita ini. Kejayaan bukan tercipta hanya dengan angan tetapi perjalanan yang punya suka dan duka.

How much that you believe in your dream?
and yourself?
Make it happen, don't turn back!
Never Say Never!!!

Sekali lagi air mataku murah.

Touch peoples' heart
Give them what they want...
And you will be successful~



Thursday, April 7, 2011

Rasa Hati kecil ini

Lama dah aku x update blog ni..
Sibuk memanjang...exam lagi..ke sana ke sini aku bergerak..
Okeh..tadi selesai satu paper..MLS LAW 1020..alhamdulillah, bole arr jawab. better dr contract and tort..cam hampeh..
aku yg punye salah..sape suruh x stadi..dok main2 jep..
"what have u learn from this incident??"
~Richard~

tetiba aku mengaplikasi kan bnde common sense ni dlm my own real situation. yeah, sekarang aku belajar untuk jadi lebih matang, optimis dan sentiasa positif.

Never Give Up!!

Tough time lasts, tough people do~

10hb ni memang mencabar kredibiliti aku...11 baru habis final..last paper..
mission must be accomplished by 10..
waaa, nk jerit ada, nak lari ada, nak nanges pun ade...
but once he says..

"ika, you must get a car in these 3 month-time..which car do you want? tell me.."
and I start dreaming...couldn't imagine if i could own my car at this young age..HOW COOL IS IT?

hoollaaa~ target sudaa satu kereta..i believe it will be mine..x sabo kau kalu dapat bawak kete raye nih..

MAKE IT HAPPEN, IKA!!!!